Let go of the anger...

Some time ago I forgave, I mean I really forgave some very hurtful soul destroying things that were done to me. By people and by a universe with a very sick sense of humor. There was nothing I actively did to get past the emotion - the anger left when I stopped feeding it and its place a calm enveloped me. I guess if you believe that there is a master plan to all of this, life was preparing me for all that it was going to fling at me.

Some people that know me ask me why I’m not more angry. Of course I have gotten sad during the events of the last few years but I’m not angry or bitter about them - that is astonishing. I cant seem to catch a break... I should be pretty pissed off about now but I’m not. Who would I aim my anger at? my body? God? the universe? lawyers? the system? its different for everything that has happened. I'm ok with not pointing fingers.

So I started thinking about writing this blog yesterday for a dear friend who is having a hard time. I was going over in my mind what to say to her and all I could think is that I honestly don’t see a purpose in anger. Especially about things that I have no control over. I figure I’m already going to have to contend with unpleasantness why would I first distract myself with rage or revenge or obsessively setting scenarios of what ifs. Instead I aim my energy at getting through it, I am going to need focus and stamina. I see other people around me who are filled with anger and frustration which spills into every aspect of their lives. They walk around exhausted by the turmoil in their hearts.

What if we use anger as a catalyst, something to create momentum to survive the bad in our lives? Wouldn’t life be different? We wouldn’t waste such a powerful force... not even on the tragic losses like deaths, divorce or other of lifes betrayals- let alone the insignificant irritants like traffic, long lines or people not returning calls. Life will continue to happen with or without our blessings on the outcome.  If we only stop being angry with fate and roll into it we will suffer less and enjoy the good so much more...  Come with me and try it- the calm I’m swimming in is the perfect temperature.